Spring is slowly approaching here in Kodiak, AK. The sun comes and goes, as does the snow or hail or what ever you want to call it. Just last year, I have concluded that out of the four seasons spring is the absolute worse. It is not because of the weather or the freshly new blooming flowers or the flourishing grass. I just truly believe that as students everyone falls into this sloom.
As spring break passes, the motivation to do any school work goes down hill while the grades gradually decreases. All anyone can focus on is the summer break, hoping to be outside with no worries about the world. Quickly falling behind with this daydream. Our mentality is stuck on this image and our emotions are building up.
For me every year I noticed how grouchy I get and emotional. I tend to fall into a deep sadness where I believe that everyone is out to get me or hates me, which usually ends up with me spending my birthday alone. I don't quite understand it because it only happens during the months March and April. My emotions get extremely sensitive and I begin to spend my days home alone.
Sometimes do not mind that this happens because I began to analyze and realize that a lot of old friends do not care about me. I always seem to run back. In this small town, things like this become controversial and "the press" come running out asking questions. I pray 2015 will make the change and I will truly be able to be myself.
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