Spring Fever

Spring is slowly approaching here in Kodiak, AK. The sun comes and goes, as does the snow or hail or what ever you want to call it. Just last year, I have concluded that out of the four seasons spring is the absolute worse. It is not because of the weather or the freshly new blooming flowers or the flourishing grass. I just truly believe that as students everyone falls into this sloom.

As spring break passes, the motivation to do any school work goes down hill while the grades gradually decreases. All anyone can focus on is the summer break, hoping to be outside with no worries about the world.  Quickly falling behind with this daydream. Our mentality is stuck on this image and our emotions are building up.

For me every year I noticed how grouchy I get and emotional. I tend to fall into a deep sadness where I believe that everyone is out to get me or hates me, which usually ends up with me spending my birthday alone. I don't quite understand it because it only happens during the months March and April. My emotions get extremely sensitive and I begin to spend my days home alone.

Sometimes do not mind that this happens because I began to analyze and realize that a lot of old friends do not care about me. I always seem to run back. In this small town, things like this become controversial and "the press" come running out asking questions. I pray 2015 will make the change and I will truly be able to be myself.

New Intentions

Cheers to the New Year! It is a big accomplishment just to make it through 2014. I just want to acknowledge all those who did not make it to 2015.

I know its very cliche to make resolutions for a new year but I believe it is to make us feel better about ourselves. We dedicate all our time in the beginning of the year to restart, start from scratch. We think a new year is a restart from all the mistakes we made in the previous year. We make goals to accomplish, to help us grow as a person.

Through out the rest of the year we forget about all these goals we set for ourselves and go back to our old habits. It does not take a long time for this to happen, mostly two to three months tops. We run back to our safety nets, scared of change. In the end there is always going to be a change in the year that the person you were a year ago would not even believe there would be.

All our goals set us up to become a better person, whether it is to be more fit, or to change your mindset, or to think more positive, or to get rid of fears, or to just be yourself. We set all the goals for good change.

My 2015 Resolutions 

Spend more time with GOD

Don't be afraid of your beliefs and thoughts.

Stay entitled to my opinions.

Have a more positive outlook on things. (Be optimistic)
Improve relationships with everyone, family, friends, classmates, teachers.

Maximize creation.

Stay away from junk food.

Develop a Meatless Monday mindset.
Push myself to try harder in everything I do.

Do not care about people's opinions about you. 

Get to know people, they probably want to get to know you too.

Write more, write about everything. 

Stay hydrated, H2O is good for you.

Be kind.

Enjoy the little things. 

Say more hi's and hello's. 

Be more confident. 

Take time to realize how blessed I am. 

Develop a better skin routine.
Love myself.
Stay on top off school and stuff.
ENJOY THE YEAR